Overwhelmed

You can say that again...I feel so unbelievably overwhelmed. My heart is hurting.

So this semester hasn't been too different as far as my health is concerned. The best thing that has happened in 2012 was getting married to my best friend. I adore him and I couldn't be happier as his wife! My health is a totally different story.

Here's how it started:
In Hawaii, I started getting this really bad rash on my chest because of the sun. It was kind of like when I had shingles...super itchy and it stung! UGH! Then, we get back and I immediately caught a virus that turned my stomach for a loop! After that, I thought I had caught a break, but that would have been too easy! My kidney pain was back along with another infection! Then, I started having this horrid pain in my stomach (that I'm still having :( ) and it was like no one knew what to do. Then, I went to my hematologist where the good news just kept on coming! She said my blood tests came back and my Lupus test was abnormal and also my protein s was still low. They aren't 100% sure, but there's a very good chance I have Lupus, which is an autoimmune disease that will change my life forever. To top everything off, they think the stomach pain I'm experiencing could be another blood clot in my stomach and if we don't catch it, it could kill my bowels. So I need to get ANOTHER CT scan on my abdomen and an MRI.

I'm having such a hard time dealing with all of this. I know I am stressing Randy out, too, and it's hurting me to know he's so worried. He has so much to deal with already and his crazy wife is never healthy. God gave me him to help me, though. I couldn't make it through without him by my side. I couldn't have asked for a better gift.

Someday I hope I'll be healthy!